Almost Perfect

I have always been a person who jumped from boy to boy, in and out of relationships and crushes. I had kissed like 15 people in my first two years of high school, which I know isn't crazy, but it makes me feel a little bad about myself.

Anyways, October 2011, I started dating my boyfriend who I promise is the love of my life. We started out slowly, but once we got fully comfortable around each other, we came to realize that we are the same person and we are perfect for each other. We've had a lot of trouble regarding parents and stuff, but after almost a year of all that drama, we are still together, and love each other. I can say I would die for him. I'm completely obsessed with him, and he is the same with me.

So we've been together for over a year and a half, and I have of course been very devoted to him. The only thing is, I still am kind of the same drifty old me. I know that I love him and I never want to leave him, but I do wish I had the freedom to maybe makeout with other people and stuff. I don't know. I do not want to lose my boyfriend, but I have been dreaming about another boy, and thinking about even a few others. I know my boyfriend would never ever do this to me (think about other people), and he even cried when he dreamed about cheating on me.

I love him, and I need him. I want to spend the rest of my life with him, and I plan on it. I just wish my mind didn't drift off so easily.