Middle Child

When I was younger, I always felt inferior to my older sister, and when my younger sister came along, she got anything she wanted. (One could argue she still does :) ) Any way I carried those feelings of not quite fitting in with my sisters for a while, and that definitely shaped my confidence at a young age.
I was always slightly overweight, while my older sister was slim. I was always afraid to ask my parents for something while my little sister would just throw what she wanted into the shopping cart. I could never get the guy I wanted, and neither of them had too much trouble with that. This developed into jealousy. I was a middle school girl, who dressed strange and had strange hair and was 100% jealous.
It made me realize what you can do to your own mind. I had set in stone that I wasn't good enough, when I actually just wasn't focusing on myself at all. I had the same issue with liking someone. I convinced myself for five years that I liked someone who wouldn't give me the time of day when there was someone better right there.
It didn't happen the way it should have. I hardly enjoyed my childhood. I always did exactly what was expected of me in attempt to better myself when I was really only conveniencing others.

I wish I could have done it on my own, but it took someone loving me completely. My parents have always loved me of course, but it took someone who didn't have to love me. I definitely centered my life around everyone else too much, and stressed myself out as a result, but it's nicer now to have an outside view of all that. I'm completely in control of how I feel, and I'm to blame for all those negative feelings. It took someone else, but it's better now.